Making Right Decisions

I had a realization come to mind while I was not expecting to have any kind of spiritual insight. It was such an amazing thing. I hope it does not sound like I have all the answers. I don't. Nor do I pretend to have them.

It was a subtle thought, yet profound. The choices we make in life are ones that come from being where we need to be to get the right results.

Case in point. Having the children I have, I know they were sent to me and our family as I had prepared myself spiritually to know when they would be a part of the family. Thoughts come to my mind during the many times that I administer the words of the temple ordinances, I say them with meaning and with preciseness. There is NO rote to my doing this important work.

Nevertheless, it has much meaning to me and to those who hear and receive them. It was quite astounding. The thoughts that came to mind was when my young daughters, Tanise, Tara and Tracie made comments about their yet, unborn and or thought of brother, Michael. It touches my heart as I know the blessings of the spirit in my home during their growing up years.

I relate this as I remember pondering as I rocked my toddler, Tana as she lie in my arms. I became drowsy and thought I would just take a short nap after I took her to her bedroom to sleep. It was mid-afternoon. I walked back to my bedroom and felt that perhaps Tana was following me. I went to my room and shut the door, and didn't think about it. I wanted to get some rest until the rest of the family needed me. Grandma McIntire was visiting us from California. She and Grandpa McIntire had come for one of their quarterly visits.

When I awoke from that short nap on a hot Arizona afternoon, I remembered to ask Grandma Mc about whether Tana went back to bed. She told me no one was up and Tana had stayed in her bed. I thought a moment and then it struck me, that perhaps it was a child in the Spirit, that was following me. I then felt so bad that I may have shut the door on a sweet little Spirit wanted to come.

I went to my knees and begged forgiveness if that was the case, I would welcome a new little one who was visiting our family. The girls, around that same time had been asking me, "Where is Michael?" I didn't know who or what they were asking about. But with the incident of feeling like Tana was following me, and it was not her, it made sense. This was in about March or April before Tana turned two.

The reason I can recall this time, is that when I was nursing her, I had to quit nursing her after three months when I was expecting Michael. How it all came together was the hand of God in our lives, once again. I know this to be so, and true.

I am so thankful for the gifts of the Spirit that assisted me throughout my life at the times when it was most needful.