Heart is Full, But My Spirit is Contrite

Today I came to understand and embrace a priesthood blessing given to me a few weeks ago. At the time it was a little puzzling to be told I would be compensated in such a way to fill my heart and life with joy, as a replacement for not having an eternal companion in my life. I thought, what? What could compensate for that, and would that really make up for the alone-ness I feel at times?

Well, today, the flood gates opened I was so filled with an increased joy for my Savior and felt his great love and the experiences that I had that brought me to feel the compensation that was almost too incredible to embrace all at once. I tasted of the fruit of eternal life and all of a sudden had the recollection of the blessing and gave great thanks for the experience I was having and bear witness of that promise that came to fruition to show ME, that it was possible.

My gratitude is great, I am overwhelmed with it and honored to serve my Savior in the way I have been given to serve in his holy temple. I know the veil was thin today, and felt the warm embrace of my ancestors cheering me forward. I know they are there busily to keep me and my children safe. My prayers were answered today to such an extent that I didn't want to leave the temple today. I wanted the feeling to last forever, but I know it is not possible (right now) to have that but the taste of it was delicious and did fill my cup to overflowing. Stepping out of the world is a protection to me, and a blessing. It gives me unlimited peace.

It just seemed that I was standing at the right places at the right time today. I saw a few people from the ward who were there for their temple blessings and sealings. I felt so much love for them, and those with whom I served.

There was a sister there today who came to do some work, that a name came up, Micaela Rodrigz. Spelled that way, like Rodriguez. Anyway, as I worked with this good sister, I felt my own ancestors through her. I began to cry. As I said the good sisters name, I paused and told her "I love you, Sister Fotheringham." She and I both wept. She understood by the Spirit that I was moved and touched by the love the Savior has for his children in the temple. It was so strong and my composure was out of control. Nevertheless it was a wonderful feeling and only one of many that manifested this good day.

I had a thought come to me, and it may be one that I will remember often. The more we pray, the more we will receive of these beautiful pearls of great price through the the veil and answers we need to know, even if we don't ask for them, they are granted out of worthiness and willingness to receive truth.

My joy is full, and it was like tasting of the fruit of eternal life, abundantly and greatly. I am even more grateful for the priesthood blessing now, understanding it more fully, how God compensates us with his grace and love in great abundance. I accept it and to this I bear this witness. In the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.

I truly felt myself in the heart of the Savior, Jesus Christ and in the arms of his love. .