Why Can We Not Go Back or Turn Back Time?

One of the things I remember doing as my children were growing up was to enjoy them in the moment I was in at the time. I think that is the reason I took many pictures of them as children to be able to remember later what they looked like and what they did.

I cherished those times and also the time I had with my parents. But, it was not always possible to visit them with me living in Utah and they in California. Time ran out so suddenly when I lost my mother, Elena in 1995. One day she was alive, and then the next day she was gone. It is not easy to lose your mother. So many of us do though in life. As time has gone on, I think about her and the things she taught me. Let me say here that the longing to have visits with her never go away.

Every once in a while I will have a dream about her, or have a sense of her love for me when I am in the temple. I also feel the same about my father and how much I miss him and how they are both missed. But this I DO know. They are around me and my family at various times and can be sensed if attuned to them. What comfort that is to me in my times of loneliness, need and which can almost be unbearable. Unless you have lost someone close to you, one can never identify with that feeling of loss. It is a void that is unfulfilled.

I have learned to have more faith in the Savior and his atonement. The plan of eternal life is also a testimony builder for me to get through those rough times. I find great consolation in going to the temple and the wonderful spirit that is there to buoy me up and carry me through. It it like peace unto my soul, and my spirit is renewed, refreshed and comforted by the power of the atonement and the holy ghost.